So many things happened this week. But I will not go into details because it might bore the crap out of you. You see, the writer is a normal person. And then when I’m not reorganzing my daily routine or trying to find money in the sky to pay for things like tomatoes and onions, I have this weight loss obsession. Sometimes, I would just stop and breathe ans out-of-the-blue have this insatiable desire to read the many books gathering dust in my living room and on the various floors of the house. If I could just read novels or even just magazines and blogs all day I would be happy as a bee. Not that I know for sure if bees could be any happier when reading. What have I been up to this week? Of course, there’s this desire to brisk walk every single day because it’s fun. I would never have guessed how enjoyable walking would be. My tummy has shrunk a bit, I think. I still eat a lot, of course. I guess the one thing I would never ever do again is to deprive myself of my favorite food. And I tell you, they’re many. But if desperation hits again, I might. Just for the sake of doing something drastic and feeling the false sense of control. I dunno. For now, I’ll just continue to walk.

By the way, I saw my ex on TV yesterday. His business got featured in a television show and he hasn’t changed a bit. He’s still good looking and his body is still hot. When I saw him, I thought my heart would leap out of my body. That’s how nervous I felt. I don’t know why but he stills makes my heart beat faster. I could literally hear every beat. Fuck him. To think he made me shed buckets of tears when we were still together. I should hate him for Christ’s sake. And yet I have this feeling of what ifs. Fuck him. What’s so special about him anyway? Did I say he was good-looking? Actually, he’s not but many girls go head over heels over him. My gawd, I should stop this. But I still have a confession to make. A stupidity, actually. But that would be another post.